I feel like I don't know who I truly am...  I keep trying to figure it out; hang out with these people today, those another day, and more the next time.  It is as if I am searching for myself through these other people.  Am I really going to find myself by looking to others?  I am guessing not...  So, until I figure it out I need to steer clear.  I seem to simply disappoint folks. I have trouble expressing to them why I no longer answer calls or respond to texts.  I don't really even know why.  Maybe it's fear of getting too close, being hurt... who knows!  One of these days I will figure it all out, and maybe then I will be able to be a friend.